Sometimes we wake up and life hands us the opposite day than what we were expecting. Sometimes, life keeps throwing those days at us one right after the other. The past few weeks have been a winding road full of bumps and breaks. Even as I’m writing this my phone is humming with two completely separate, yet heart wrenching, text messages. The thing is, these last couple of weeks have also been overflowing with friendship, kindness, and the kind of laughter that makes your stomach hurt. In these moments of both good and bad we discover ourselves and what we are capable of. We remember the community that supports us, the family that will never leave, and the friends who promise to stand by our side. We push on through the bad days because they make us stronger. We remember that all moments are worth living because without them there is no growth or change, and they make us exactly who we are today.
“Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.” – Alice Walker; Living by the Word